Good morning! Yesterday I went for a nice and easy 3 mile run- left the garmin at home and just ran to run. felt very nice. But then I came home and saw that Todd- one of my best guy friends had text messsaged me telling me to check my email. Heart started to pound through my chest- i knew what he meant- Loyola had sent out decisions regarding studying abroad! I had applied to New Zealand- as did he and my two roommates Becky and Kelly. So I opened the email- DENIED. At first I was super super bummed. I wanted to go there so much- and it made it even better that Todd, Becky, and Kelly were going too. I love the outdoors and doing fun- action type activities- and just knew I would love it there. Todd loves all of that too- he would always tell me how he hoped we both got in cause we would have a blast together. I didnt cry because I was making veggie lasagna and my sisters were both watching me! But I wanted to! Loyola sent me a list of places that are still open— the only ones of interest include: (1) Melbourne, Australia, (2) Florence, Italy, (3) Paris, France, (4) Copenhagen, Denmark.
So then, Mary and I went to BIKRAM YOGA (first time in about….a month!?) I just love that so much. 90 minutes- and it feels like you are there for 2. at no point in time do I ever think “jeez, WHEN IS THIS OVER!?” I just love it. everthing about it. So While Im sitting there with my head under my butt and leg straight in the air- breathing the way i should breathe and dripping in sweat (okay im kinda kidding here) – it hits me! THIS IS NOT A BIG DEAL- AT ALLLLLLL!! There are SO much worse things in the world! WOW- I didnt get in where I wanted. I will figure it out. if worse comes to worse- I stay at loyola. Ill still have one of my best friends (court) and my 2 of my best guy friends (drew and joe). and Ill be able to get to know these girls i became friendly with at the end of this year. See the thing is- my parents did not want me to apply to New zealand. so now I know it going to be difficult to deal with my parents- to get them to allow me to reapply somewhere else!
So I call my mom and told her and said that they gave me a list of places that are still open. and she started like yelling at me basically. asking why i would ever wanna go to a another country for half a year. whats wrong with loyola. and thats in dangerous and all of this stuff. and I was said, mother dear just because I am the only one in the family that wants to do something different doesnt mean you should just totally shut down what i wanna do. its a once in a lifetime thing to go abroad- you gotta do it when ur young- when else am i going to be able to do this. and of course its somewhat risky but what isnt? and if i lived life always doing the safe things what kind of life is that? and then she just kept being mean and getting louder and louder saying that she is so busy and cant deal with this right now so then i started to cry/get choked up and i said mom why cant you have a level head for once in your life like dad- here i am clearly upset- all of my friends got into where they wanted to go- todd/kelly/becky got into the exact place i wanted to go and instead of being nice about it you are yelling at me. So then we dropped the convo and said goodbye. She called back about 10 seconds later and says “T (my nickname) i am sorry for yelling at you. you just have to understand ive been working long hours with dad at the office all week and been so busy trying to get stuff ready for going away (they are going to france- europe for the first time- tomorrow!!!) im just tired.” and i said well i dont think you should make an excuse as to why you were so mean to me on the phone when i was upset. and she said i know- dad you and i will sit down and talk about where you cant and can go. and a talk in general about what you want to do. We will both have to hear each other out and go from there. what do you guys think about this convo? truthfully, now.
So it seems good to me. I am going to wait and talk with them after they come back. Its my dad’s birthday tonight and I am going home for dinner- I do not want them to be stressed. In the meantime, Ill consider my options (summer programs included) and try to decide where I truly want to go). What do you think about studying abroad???
So after all of THAT drama…. we ate my Veggie Lasgna! It was really good! But a little too messy/watery. Needed to let it sit for 10 minutes before eating– WOOPS! And next time I want to try putting spinach in it!
Woke up today- had my oatmeal- now I am going home with one of my sisters- while the other stays here at the shore. We are going to go shopping for my Dad , go on a run!, and then get stuff to make the salad for dinner to help my mom out a bit. have a good day!
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